Wednesday, November 22, 2006
my retarded way of life ♥
1hr 4 mi goin 2 wrkk liao still unable 2 slep...i tink i had done alot of tinks wrg nw which make a great difference 4 every1...i really regret 4 wad i had did which should'nt had been done in e 1st place...2dae playin e billard oso nt myself i feel realy ps n i cant even had e face to tok 2 him straight in him even though he still being his ownself...i realy had change alot i m nt myself animore ttz wad peter told mi...i cant tink 4 myself animore do hw many time researching oso no use 4 mi..i m nt e person hu will change 4 my fren but wad i tok 2 peter below my blk i finally realise tt i had being stupid all tis while...i dun like 2 listen 2 beter advice animore i onli like ppl 2 change 2 my point of view n making use of them frm e time i had change...wtf wif mi rite nw oso duno i onli left wif my tis 4fren of mine n i m drifting further away frm them which i did'nt even start 2 realise until nw...i oso duno wad e f*k i m doin all is while playing my F*kin computer game...i m nt tt STEADY person which they sae i use 2 be...frm e start wher i had tis com itz e time our prob realy started if nt 4 my F*kin brain n my F*kin com all e tinks would nv even happen...lies after lies i had been tellin them which until 2dae means SO MUCH 2 them which i tink their tolerence iz at e max...
i realy duno wad realy happen 2 mi i 4get e slience promise our bro's had given frm e start i tink tt i m e 1 breakin them nw..even though they nv shown on their face 2dae but i still can feel e difference n e tone they tok 2 mi 2dae even they act as normal....i duno if i can still face them ltr ut i noe tt sumtink realy muz be done asap..n i hope my choice had make e route back 2 normal..8 long yrs wif tis fren can realy replace anitink coz they realy helped mi tru tis 21yrs...mistake after mistake i oso duno hw long it will still carry on but juz walk 1 step at a time iz a onli tink i can do nw...
i had been finding all e excuse 2 challenge all their qn which i tink back i m realy avoiding all ans..i duno if i can change myself i m totally blank by wad peter told mi..he iz e glue which stick us up in our 5fren n every1 iz spiltin 1 by 1..i noe sumtink i had done may nt be wrg but i realy nv tot of wad others might feel which iz e worse point..i had known them so well i cant still 4get at it i oso duno WTF i m doin n typing all tis..i feel so change in personailty i m nt i m should be...tink tru wad i did iz F*KIN stupid action.............................................
*f*k my f*kin com
